Just gotta keep on keepin' on I suppose 4/23/08

Well, today was a big day at our agency. A new batch of children (SN's), had come in last week, and today was the day they were to decide who would be blessed with new arrivals or not.

Dave and I had never requested a match to a special needs child, but when I saw the two little faces of these twin girls, my heart melted, and I just had to ask Dave his feelings too.

I was completely taken back when Dave expressed interest, and together we dove right in. We shared our news with family and friends, which perhaps wasn't the best idea in town.

Today, I sat by the phone, trying to remain optimistic, though my fears were mounting. When the call finally came in, and my S.W. stated it's not good news, it was all I could do to remain calm and get through the conversation. "I did everything in my power", she said, or something to that effect.

Now, I'm just left with such a sense of loss. I know Dave, who's NEVER phased in these types of situations, is devastated in his own way.

I feel especially sad for his Mom, who got sooooo excited about these two babies. So, what do you do in this situation. We've been waiting for nearly 26 months. I feel as though my heart was ripped out. I feel such a sense of loss. This process is endless.

When I think back to the initial application, in '04, when we had to pull out of the process. The wait time back then was a mere 6 months. Now, it's tripled from that time, no end in site.

I feel truly sad for the people that have put in and requested a match with a child before, this, and got refused. How many times can you go through this type of rejection.

All any of us want to be are parents. All we want to hear is laughter in our homes......... wipe away tears, and love and nurture.

So, that's about it. We understood that requesting a match to these twins was such a long shot, but still the pain is no less. I wish them a wonderful life, with their new family, and may they have speedy travel...

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo's your almost Mom :). I'll think of you for the rest of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bless you all.

Ohhhh, come lie wis me Mon Petite......... let us run off to Za Casbar !!

Last Weekend... Easter Sunday

My boys first walk in the woods......... there will be MANY more of these :)

Me, Pirate and Chelsea girlie girl at the Town dock.

March 20th..... Our One Month Anniversary Together, I'm helping my Mom dance the China Crawl - so WE WAIT AND PLAY

Happy Spring Everybody........... this is one of my VERY first outings.. perhaps my second. We go out and socialize as this is extremely important for a Briard such as myself. I also like to play with kids, and I get to fantasize about my new little Sister / Sisters that are already born in China. Gee....... I'm from France, she / they're from China........ we're a pretty mixed up family.
But, I sit, and ponder the future........... hmmmn......... I SOOOOOO WANT TO PLAY NOW :).
C'MON ALREADY........ ENOUGH OF THE CHATTER....... LET'S GO FISHING OR SOMETHING FUN!!!!!!!!!!
I'm helping my Mom forget the calendar, and just how long it is taking to complete our family, BUT, if Baylon was here already........ I wouldn't be........... THANKS FOR THE SLOWDOWN CHINA......... yipeeeeeee....... I love my new family............ got the heck out of cold Wisconsin, and made it to the North Shore of Long Island......... C'MON GUYS LETS GOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!

March 7th, 2008

Just some happy faces...................... !!!!!

My World's A Better Place With You In It

It's nice to feel this happy........................................... Me and my little boy Pirate born 12/30/07, that was my Mom's Birthday..........
March 4, 2008

Pirate's First Play Date 2/29/08

My little guy was sooooooooo GOOD :) We had so much fun today. Hopefully we'll go again, BUT, I snuck him into the Mall, and pretty soon, he'll be way too big :)

Thursday February 26, 2008

Here's...... Pirate, my Briard, shortly after we brought him home, settling in.

A photo with Mama Chloe and me with little Pirate......

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It's been quite a while since I've posted, but I've been on the sidelines just waiting......

I'm happy to introduce you to the newest love of my life, Pirate. I flew to pick him up in Wisconsin one week ago, and I can't explain the uplifting wonderful aura this house is experiencing..... here's...................... Pirate, Registered name is..

PennyLane Classique Corsair's Booty, A Pirate Tail

Now, we just wait (not so patiently) for our little girl's referral.............. BUT, life goes on.

I hear that referrals are up to the 4th of January.... that kinda stinks, but at least we're into 2006...... hmmmmmn, maybe cause for a mini celebration :)

PUPPIES!!!!!! 16 PUPPIES!!!!!!! PUPPIES!!!!!!!

Puppies were born on December 30th, 2007..... all 16 are doing great. One of these little guys is absolutely, positively, without a doubt, happily mine. Just not sure which one. 12 Girls, and 4 Boys, hows that for a gender imbalance :)

Congratulations to all that received their referrals, one very lucky couple even received twins. Can't believe that referrals only went to the 19th of December though. So sad, but I can't dwell, because WE HAVE PUPPIES!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!